Now that I'm a bit calmer, I know this isn't true, they are always learning and we did do some great things this week. But by the end of the week I'm feeling depressed, lonely, unsure of homeschooling... I even had the thought that maybe my son would be better off in school so he could play with friends and stop asking me to play over and over and over again! I know there's a balance somewhere that we'll eventually find. It's hard to figure out how much to commit to doing and how much time to allow at home. Hard to say no to all the great field trips and classes offered and make time to be home, especially if that time at home doesn't always feel productive and growing up in our society, if you're not visibly, tangibly productive, then you're just wasting time. Even if no one tells me this, it's still ingrained in my head. And I still have not gotten any business work done! I need to schedule time in for that and make myself stick to it! Talk about lazy!!
Okay, I'll give myself a small break, it's not like I lay around napping or watching tv, ever. Not ever. No, never. Even if I really wanted to! Man, that would be nice.
Rather than give in to my self doubt and insecurities, I am now reflecting on some of the things we did this week and realizing, wow, we actually did do a lot!
Monday, much needed sleeping in and relaxing after our busy weekend of camping and fishing, as well as unpacking, laundry, and cleaning the house for my own sanity. The kids played, built things, counted and made patterns with buttons, rode bikes, etc. Also we dressed in silly clothes all day to show off our "awesomeness" on my birthday. They dressed me in a tutu, tiara, and flower leis. Went to dinner and the park after; yes, I sported my awesome attire out!
Tuesday, Monkey went to school, Boo and I had some time together playing at home. Then to history club. We forgot to read our chapter in The Story of the World V1., so just listened to it in the car on the way to history club while eating our lunch, just made it in time! He made a mummy with a Barbie doll! Probably the best project ever! Time to play with friends on the playground after. Home to ride bikes and then to Karate class.
Thursday, wrote get well cards for a friend, drew pictures, read in a math story book and did a few pages from a workbook. Read our verse for the next Awanas. Made apple sauce from apples we picked a few weeks ago. Had planned to make pie, but waited too long! We ended up with some cider, too! The kids used our crank apple parer and corer. I used too much water (we were out of apple juice) so ended up with runny apple sauce with the consistency of baby food and some cider from the water I removed before blending them. Maybe I should have looked at a recipe? Oh well, both tasted wonderful! Ran a couple errands, but came home because Boo was tired and throwing tantrums and I wanted to join her! Read books, played memory, built forts with Monkey while she napped.
National Geographic Kids. Monkey played a game on that site called AnimalJam for a while. Went to an adoption party and played with friends till really late. He brought some treasures in a little leather pouch and had them all pretending to be Indians or nature explorers!
Now I feel so much better! We really did do a lot of learning! It just seemed so low key, it's hard to realize we are learning sometimes. I just need to remember kids learn through play and they played all week! And I don't need to listen to the lies in my head that we have to have something in hand to grade to know they learned. It really was a great week. Phew! Maybe I'm not destroying my kids lives after all. At least not this week.